“I feel like every step I take requires a lot of thought and a lot of intention because if I do one thing wrong, things will compound on each other and fall apart - that some great life catastrophe will occur. So I guess I’m just constantly living in a fragile state, feeling like things aren’t stable enough to allow for me to fumble and be human all the time. I think the most helpful thing for me to remember is that I unconditionally love the people in my life so much that there is no way that that isn’t reciprocated in some fashion. It’s about forcing myself to accept that, even if no one is saying every day ‘I love you no matter how much you fuck up’, that that exists in a capacity that doesn’t need to be spoken - it’s just there and around me.”