“I feel like people don’t enjoy being around me, mostly because I give so much and I don’t necessarily always get that back. Whether real or imagined, it’s just a lonely way to go through life, thinking I’m never anyone’s first choice. I’m very secure in myself and who I am as a person, so it’s not something I want to change and it’s not that I think I’m bad, it’s just the feeling of not getting that reciprocity that’s so hurtful. On the surface, I seem like I have a lot of friends but I don’t really have deep connections with a lot of people so it’s really hard to feel like there’s something there for me a lot of the time. I think it’s important to remember to wait around for the people who are worth it - those who want to give back what I’m giving them. I know that there are people like that, and there are people that do care about me.”